I will learn

It's ok that you choose not to share with me.. but I do think it's kinda foolish to not tell me when I alr knew most of it.. Do not want me to think too much you say? The problem is I know most of it and you are not telling me the whole story.. And you are expecting me to not think so much? Funny~ I thought it's ok to share everything to each other.. Today you showed me otherwise.. =) I will learn not to share about everything.. I will learn to keep things once more.. Don't blame me in the future if someone else know the things that you don't.. You taught me not to share.. and I will learn..

I dun give a damn anymore

If you can't do the things you want me to do, then you have no right to ask me to do so, If you break your own promise to me, then I have no obligation in keeping mine, If you raise your voice when you're talking to me, then I have no reason to keep my tone low at all time, If you can't be thoughtful enough to not be careless, then I don't see any point why I should be thoughtful, I am seeking for balance only. If you can't give as much as you ask, then you have no right to be that greedy. Frigging shit of 2012. Worst birthday, Worst Christmas and Worst New Year.

Do u know?

Every time when I look at you~ I would ask myself.. Have I done enough? Have I been good enough? As time passes on.. I actually forgot about myself.. All I wanted to do is to make you happy.. To be the person you like.. That is so ironic.. I have always thought you would like the real me.. I am worried~ that when I am myself.. How will you think about me? Have you ever thought of what's going on in my mind? I was hurt so much that day.. But I cant tell you about it.. I guess you do not really understand me.. I am a human after all.. I have emotions sometimes.. I need your comfort sometimes.. There're things are better off not to share because it would only lead to more sadness.. I really really hope you could see through me the other day~ that I was hurt.. Haha.. it turns out I am just expecting something that wont happen I guess.. I am frustrated.. It's still my fault I think.. For not being mature enough.. Just one simple question~ How much do you know about me? =)

The Chasm

Yet despite the efforts I put in, the inevitable still happens~ Chasm continues to grow wider~ Feeling more and more distant and lost~ The helplessness that lives within is crying out loud~ Still I will not accept it~ I still believe~ Believe that the Chasm one day will be gone~ I still believe~ and I am still striving~ Till I fall~

心

[男人要永远感谢在他20多岁的时候曾经陪在他身边的女人。因为2​0多岁的男人处在一生中的最低点，没钱、没事业；而20多岁的女​人却是她最灿烂的时候..]

Haha.. 我实在非常认同我朋友说的这一句。。毕竟我现在并没有经济能力，而她选择了我。我并没有什么特别的优点，我真的非常开心她选择了我。我知道有时候的我无意中疏忽了她的感受。我也感到很自责，我问自己为什么我就是那么的迟钝。我已经答应过她我会尽我一百一的能力做到最好。。所以我实在不能伤害到她。我其实非常的希望她跟我在一起的时间是开心的。。我到了英国我才后悔。。不停地骂自己笨蛋一个。。我竟然会不敢牵她的手。。实在的非常后悔。。当我回国后，我最想要的是给她我最温暖的拥抱。。之后，就牵着她的手再也不放。。 我终于了解为爱情疯狂的感觉。。因为我本身就已经为她疯狂了。。我也不晓得她会不会看到我的部落各。。但我真的很想让她知道。。我就是有说不出的那种感觉。。我已经完全彻底地爱上了她。。

戴咏仪~ 我爱你!! ♥♥♥

Love-sick

So this is the feeling of falling in love~
I am missing her every single moment.. every now and then..
sometimes i got insomnia, I cant help it but to keep remembering the sweet times I had with her to ease my love-sick..
I gotta thank God.. cuz I really have found a girl I really like and love a lot..

Just found out a song by 严爵， 没有你怎么办.. I just love the chorus so much.. it's as if describing my exact feeling..

没有你怎么办，像我现在无法入眠~
多想要和你聊聊天~
没有你怎么办，像我现在无法入眠~
只想要你在我身边~ 在我身边~

Haha.. I think it's normal for me to be love-sick right?? to be more specific, Rachel-sick.. >< Gosh, I miss her so much.. It's alr 1am.. and I am still thinking about her.. wonder when will i be able to slumber~~~~~

It's real to me

Is it juz a story?
Is it juz a poetry?
Is it juz fantasy?
Or is it reality?
Was it juz a memory?
Or was it juz history?
Is it juz what i can see?
Or would U believe in me?
I'm not sure wat u think
All i know is
That it's real to me...

Having hard times concentrating

Seriously I am having trouble concentrating in class. I was actually "fishing" in Maths Class. The only matters that keep me awake are my friends' chatter and the girls passing by the classroom. *Haha* Really hate myself for that. I cant believe I was actually checking the girls out. But the girls nowadays are really tall, not to mention they are attractive as well. *Hehe* Recently, I found out that I was not that tall after all. Reason? Simple. There are girls who are actually taller than me. Frankly speaking, I was totally stunned when the girl passed by me that day. I was wondering if only she could "donate" some of her "height" to those shorter girls.X) Anyway, I really hope I will be able to concentrate better in the future.

A little chit chat

Yesterday I had a great conversation with my best friend, Henry. Well, it was quite an unexpected gathering. Last minute planning I would say. As usual, we talked about our studies and both of us came to a conclusion saying Engineering Course is really tough. The funny thing was about reversing time and making a whole new decision again. Both of us said, " If I got a second chance, I will not pick up engineering course." After talking about studies, of course I started "digging" his little love affair. It appears that he and his beloved gf are getting closer than I thought. I am indeed happy for them. A little advice here bud~ Try not to be so cool lar when watching horror movie with your girl. Try to hold her hand or lend her your shoulder. X)

The Fray - Never say never

Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without and just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of, together all the while

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go [x6]

Picture, you're queen of everything
Far as the eye can see under your command
I will be your guardian when all is crumbling
I'll steady your hand

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time, time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go [x6]

We're pulling apart
And coming together again and again
We're pulling apart
But we pull it together
Pull it together again

Don't let me go [x6]

Don't let me go [x6]

Support

"Thus nature has no love for solitude, and always leans, as it were, on some support; and the sweetest support is found in the most intimate friendship."

If U are reading these, I hope U knw the quote is meant for U. I can understand the stress U had been facing. Frankly speaking, I was a bit shocked when U said U wanna give up, because U are the type that will nvr give up and always striving to get stronger. Through our conversation, I can feel the sadness and disappointment in U. I knw sometimes the world could be unfair to us in certain circumstances, but that's the sad truth. It's impossible for the world to be fair n square. That's why we need God to guide and grant us strength to overcome numerous obstacles in our life. Sadly, U are an atheist. I wonder when will U try to believe the existence of God? Anyway, I am happy U finally stood up and decided not to quit again. Lastly, I just want to let U knw~ I ll be Ur support anytime and anywhere. Keep striving! =)

1st day in school [17/5/10]

Monday Blues~ Feeling heavy and lazy as i walked to school sleepily. I was really unhappy with the inefficiency of my faculty. Why? Most of the other faculties had released their timetable respectively where my course's timetable was nowhere to be found. In the end, I photocopied the timetable from my course rep. Carlson, which he got it from the office. When I looked at the timetable, one word to describe my feeling at that very moment- Thrilled. No Saturday class for me, which means I wont have to rush back and attend youth service on Saturday. I really hope i will be able to do better in this semester. Thanks God for everything. =)

The Final Year

Haih~ Time really flies. I can hardly believe that my holidays have come to an end so quickly. Tomorrow will be my 1st day of 4th semester and also the final year to complete advance diploma. I am sure this semester will be hectic for everyone, since we will be doing our final year project. I really hope I can manage my time and studies well despite the fact that I am quite a playful person. Finally, wishing everyone all the best in their studies especially those who will be facing SPM and PMR trials soon. =)

Dance as though no one is watching~ X)

Dance as though no one is watching. This is what i have been doing for my holidays. The word "Dance" doesn't really means i am really dancing, it's just simply representing the stuffs i have been doing. I was totally playing to the maximum . However, i feel like i have wasted my time. X.X Just got my result few days ago[ 2As 1B]. I was a bit disappointed when i got the result. I tot i could at least score an A- or B+ minimum for the entrepreneurship paper, as i have put quite some efforts on it. ><" Anyway, there is no point sighing around when it's impossible to change the fact that I have got such result. Still, I am thankful to God. =)

~Today's Moments are Tomorrow's Memories~

Hi there. It's been a while since i started blogging. This is my second blog actually. X) Hope you guys will support me. I dun think i will be updating the blog very often though. X.X But I will try my best to keep the blog "alive". Haha. Yup~ Today's moments are tomorrow's memories. That's my blog title. The phrase is somehow very true to me. Thus, it 's important to cherish your everyday and moment since they're gonna be your tmr's memories. =)