Do u know?

Every time when I look at you~ I would ask myself.. Have I done enough? Have I been good enough? As time passes on.. I actually forgot about myself.. All I wanted to do is to make you happy.. To be the person you like.. That is so ironic.. I have always thought you would like the real me.. I am worried~ that when I am myself.. How will you think about me? Have you ever thought of what's going on in my mind? I was hurt so much that day.. But I cant tell you about it.. I guess you do not really understand me.. I am a human after all.. I have emotions sometimes.. I need your comfort sometimes.. There're things are better off not to share because it would only lead to more sadness.. I really really hope you could see through me the other day~ that I was hurt.. Haha.. it turns out I am just expecting something that wont happen I guess.. I am frustrated.. It's still my fault I think.. For not being mature enough.. Just one simple question~ How much do you know about me? =)

The Chasm

Yet despite the efforts I put in, the inevitable still happens~ Chasm continues to grow wider~ Feeling more and more distant and lost~ The helplessness that lives within is crying out loud~ Still I will not accept it~ I still believe~ Believe that the Chasm one day will be gone~ I still believe~ and I am still striving~ Till I fall~

心

[男人要永远感谢在他20多岁的时候曾经陪在他身边的女人。因为2​0多岁的男人处在一生中的最低点，没钱、没事业；而20多岁的女​人却是她最灿烂的时候..]

Haha.. 我实在非常认同我朋友说的这一句。。毕竟我现在并没有经济能力，而她选择了我。我并没有什么特别的优点，我真的非常开心她选择了我。我知道有时候的我无意中疏忽了她的感受。我也感到很自责，我问自己为什么我就是那么的迟钝。我已经答应过她我会尽我一百一的能力做到最好。。所以我实在不能伤害到她。我其实非常的希望她跟我在一起的时间是开心的。。我到了英国我才后悔。。不停地骂自己笨蛋一个。。我竟然会不敢牵她的手。。实在的非常后悔。。当我回国后，我最想要的是给她我最温暖的拥抱。。之后，就牵着她的手再也不放。。 我终于了解为爱情疯狂的感觉。。因为我本身就已经为她疯狂了。。我也不晓得她会不会看到我的部落各。。但我真的很想让她知道。。我就是有说不出的那种感觉。。我已经完全彻底地爱上了她。。

戴咏仪~ 我爱你!! ♥♥♥

Love-sick

So this is the feeling of falling in love~
I am missing her every single moment.. every now and then..
sometimes i got insomnia, I cant help it but to keep remembering the sweet times I had with her to ease my love-sick..
I gotta thank God.. cuz I really have found a girl I really like and love a lot..

Just found out a song by 严爵， 没有你怎么办.. I just love the chorus so much.. it's as if describing my exact feeling..

没有你怎么办，像我现在无法入眠~
多想要和你聊聊天~
没有你怎么办，像我现在无法入眠~
只想要你在我身边~ 在我身边~

Haha.. I think it's normal for me to be love-sick right?? to be more specific, Rachel-sick.. >< Gosh, I miss her so much.. It's alr 1am.. and I am still thinking about her.. wonder when will i be able to slumber~~~~~

It's real to me

Is it juz a story?
Is it juz a poetry?
Is it juz fantasy?
Or is it reality?
Was it juz a memory?
Or was it juz history?
Is it juz what i can see?
Or would U believe in me?
I'm not sure wat u think
All i know is
That it's real to me...

Having hard times concentrating

Seriously I am having trouble concentrating in class. I was actually "fishing" in Maths Class. The only matters that keep me awake are my friends' chatter and the girls passing by the classroom. *Haha* Really hate myself for that. I cant believe I was actually checking the girls out. But the girls nowadays are really tall, not to mention they are attractive as well. *Hehe* Recently, I found out that I was not that tall after all. Reason? Simple. There are girls who are actually taller than me. Frankly speaking, I was totally stunned when the girl passed by me that day. I was wondering if only she could "donate" some of her "height" to those shorter girls.X) Anyway, I really hope I will be able to concentrate better in the future.

A little chit chat

Yesterday I had a great conversation with my best friend, Henry. Well, it was quite an unexpected gathering. Last minute planning I would say. As usual, we talked about our studies and both of us came to a conclusion saying Engineering Course is really tough. The funny thing was about reversing time and making a whole new decision again. Both of us said, " If I got a second chance, I will not pick up engineering course." After talking about studies, of course I started "digging" his little love affair. It appears that he and his beloved gf are getting closer than I thought. I am indeed happy for them. A little advice here bud~ Try not to be so cool lar when watching horror movie with your girl. Try to hold her hand or lend her your shoulder. X)