I will learn

It's ok that you choose not to share with me.. but I do think it's kinda foolish to not tell me when I alr knew most of it.. Do not want me to think too much you say? The problem is I know most of it and you are not telling me the whole story.. And you are expecting me to not think so much? Funny~ I thought it's ok to share everything to each other.. Today you showed me otherwise.. =) I will learn not to share about everything.. I will learn to keep things once more.. Don't blame me in the future if someone else know the things that you don't.. You taught me not to share.. and I will learn..

I dun give a damn anymore

If you can't do the things you want me to do, then you have no right to ask me to do so, If you break your own promise to me, then I have no obligation in keeping mine, If you raise your voice when you're talking to me, then I have no reason to keep my tone low at all time, If you can't be thoughtful enough to not be careless, then I don't see any point why I should be thoughtful, I am seeking for balance only. If you can't give as much as you ask, then you have no right to be that greedy. Frigging shit of 2012. Worst birthday, Worst Christmas and Worst New Year.

Do u know?

Every time when I look at you~ I would ask myself.. Have I done enough? Have I been good enough? As time passes on.. I actually forgot about myself.. All I wanted to do is to make you happy.. To be the person you like.. That is so ironic.. I have always thought you would like the real me.. I am worried~ that when I am myself.. How will you think about me? Have you ever thought of what's going on in my mind? I was hurt so much that day.. But I cant tell you about it.. I guess you do not really understand me.. I am a human after all.. I have emotions sometimes.. I need your comfort sometimes.. There're things are better off not to share because it would only lead to more sadness.. I really really hope you could see through me the other day~ that I was hurt.. Haha.. it turns out I am just expecting something that wont happen I guess.. I am frustrated.. It's still my fault I think.. For not being mature enough.. Just one simple question~ How much do you know about me? =)

The Chasm

Yet despite the efforts I put in, the inevitable still happens~ Chasm continues to grow wider~ Feeling more and more distant and lost~ The helplessness that lives within is crying out loud~ Still I will not accept it~ I still believe~ Believe that the Chasm one day will be gone~ I still believe~ and I am still striving~ Till I fall~

心

[男人要永远感谢在他20多岁的时候曾经陪在他身边的女人。因为2​0多岁的男人处在一生中的最低点，没钱、没事业；而20多岁的女​人却是她最灿烂的时候..]

Haha.. 我实在非常认同我朋友说的这一句。。毕竟我现在并没有经济能力，而她选择了我。我并没有什么特别的优点，我真的非常开心她选择了我。我知道有时候的我无意中疏忽了她的感受。我也感到很自责，我问自己为什么我就是那么的迟钝。我已经答应过她我会尽我一百一的能力做到最好。。所以我实在不能伤害到她。我其实非常的希望她跟我在一起的时间是开心的。。我到了英国我才后悔。。不停地骂自己笨蛋一个。。我竟然会不敢牵她的手。。实在的非常后悔。。当我回国后，我最想要的是给她我最温暖的拥抱。。之后，就牵着她的手再也不放。。 我终于了解为爱情疯狂的感觉。。因为我本身就已经为她疯狂了。。我也不晓得她会不会看到我的部落各。。但我真的很想让她知道。。我就是有说不出的那种感觉。。我已经完全彻底地爱上了她。。

戴咏仪~ 我爱你!! ♥♥♥

Love-sick

So this is the feeling of falling in love~
I am missing her every single moment.. every now and then..
sometimes i got insomnia, I cant help it but to keep remembering the sweet times I had with her to ease my love-sick..
I gotta thank God.. cuz I really have found a girl I really like and love a lot..

Just found out a song by 严爵， 没有你怎么办.. I just love the chorus so much.. it's as if describing my exact feeling..

没有你怎么办，像我现在无法入眠~
多想要和你聊聊天~
没有你怎么办，像我现在无法入眠~
只想要你在我身边~ 在我身边~

Haha.. I think it's normal for me to be love-sick right?? to be more specific, Rachel-sick.. >< Gosh, I miss her so much.. It's alr 1am.. and I am still thinking about her.. wonder when will i be able to slumber~~~~~

It's real to me

Is it juz a story?
Is it juz a poetry?
Is it juz fantasy?
Or is it reality?
Was it juz a memory?
Or was it juz history?
Is it juz what i can see?
Or would U believe in me?
I'm not sure wat u think
All i know is
That it's real to me...